Thruthful

what's wrong with the world?
Our truths have been commercialized, fraudulized, criminalized, and all the izes you can think of.

We've been brain washed into thinking its a shame to confront it, and for whose satisfaction at the end of the day? Public opinion?!?

Why when my hurt is aching, and my tears are falling - where is public opinion?
When my feelings get walked all over, and common ground is plague-lized by miscommunication where the fuck is public opinion?

How about when my roads seem to go from wide to narrow,
My air is thin,
My hair is falling,
Am close to the edge
& my only alternative is jumping off?

Should I face my truths and accept that you just at worth the chase.
Should I face my truths and accept that a man don't have to be anything but a man.
(What is a man?)

Should I face the truth and accept love aint something to be schooled.
Should I face the truth and accept that it doesn't work 60/40.

Or should I lie
...
To myself
- and accept your apology.

Or should I lie to myself & ignore what bothers me?
Damn am confused seems like both my truths and lies hurt.

Love

I enjoy my globalized politics course so much. It has me viewing the world from a new perspective. Also, I now have a rational view of the way countries govern themselves or rather their people. There is still a need for me to educate myself on the history of our diversified world, however, professor Golob has created a syllabus that permits students to harness an objective view of our world. Despite the constraints of having no deep seated back ground in world history.

Before this course globalization meant simply trade across boarders to me. Ignorant! I know. How what was going on in the east of the world affecting my world in the west was not a parallel I could have drawn easily before this course. When Somalian pirates rob a U.S. Bound oil tanker the repercussions now all seem endless to me. When Tehran insist that it has a right to produce nuclear arms with the defense being for domestic purposes, forgetting the fact that they're producing uranium too little to be destructive, but at the same time they have no plants to receive and utilize this fuel now raises a question in my mind.

Its all amazing. Especially the issue of the US as a world super power. Kagan, Schlesinger, Huntington, Zakaria, Niam, Blair and countless others together with the Economist and the NYTimes have and are continuing to shape my outlook on our globalized world.

The R

Everyday am learning something new about what it takes to make a relationship work. Piece of advice am trying to make good use of is "sometimes you just have to learn not to sweat the small things."

Am the kind of person who will take the smallest mold and create a mountain out of it. Forgetting sometimes that we are all humans, and we have no other alternative than to act human.

I sometimes forget the age ole saying "do unto others as you would like them to do unto you." I react certain ways and expect others to react more humanly towards me. Always forgetting that just the same way I can snap others can snap as well.

I see every cold shoulder as an immediate punishment for some unknown mistake I've made. I've some how nursed the idea into being that I am the centre of Bobby's universe and that there are no other stresses in his life. So immediately I start nagging and hackling him about what I've done wrong, which I've discovered only makes situations more confrontational.
My approach now is to let him know am here and if he feels like talking about it am here to listen and offer comfort. And what do you know, so far this approach is working wonders.

I sometimes forget the reason I fell in love with him, which explains his tendency to isolate himself and not want to discuss things.
But all the same we're still together and I love him more each day.